Change is in the air, I feel it all around me. The weather has been teasing us with warmth that is unusual this time of year but I know and can feel that the cold is coming and the snow will stick the next snowfall we have. These changes I find comfort in, it is probably because it is change that I can count on. I know what to expect from winter, spring, summer, and fall.
Life brings us changes that are not constant and not at all certain. If I let myself I could become overwhelmed with worry and hesitation. It is in my nature to resist change if at all neccasary. Yet some things are out of my control. It is finding peace with the unknown, that is the hard part.
I want to romanticize my life and feel that my exsistence has greater meaning then the daily activities that make up my life. I want my words to go on beyond myself. I want to find that passion and excitement I had when I was younger. I refuse to let myself get sucked into lifes great monotony.
I dont know even what I "believe" in anymore. I do know that if I am searching I will find the answers. Right? The Human experience has more to offer then just survival, of that I am sure.
