A year ago I would have never imagined that I would be living in a house that I own, I would have never imagined that my mother is remarrying after 7 years (or is it 8?) of being single, and would have never thought that I would be working back at my old job at a convenient store/pizza place, or that I would be engaged. With that said it kind of baffles me or maybe scares me a little to think what is in store for me a year from now. What changes are to be expected or unexpected that will affect my life? To think about that for too long would cause some severe mental strain I am sure. I only have now, this moment, this place, I have no idea whats in store for me tomorrow or even today for that matter. I may not even be alive for long. I want to enjoy every moment that I have right now. I want to look in awe at the beauty of God's awesome creation in wonder as if it is the first time seeing it. I don't know what kind of heartache or beautiful thing is around that bend in the road, but i want to enjoy and be thankful for every minute I have until then.
I also want to say how thankful I am for friendship. I have become really close the past few years with a girlfriend I work with. I cant explain the void that would be in my life if I did not have her friendship. It is so nice to be on the same page as somebody. To enjoy a nice long talk over coffee and taking walks and yardsaling. It just makes me very happy to have a friend that I can go to when I am hurting or excited. I really forgot how nice friendship is to have. I lived my life for so many years shutting people out because I was hurt by them, I learned to find comfort in loneliness. It feels good to embrace friendship again and let down my high walls.
