New Territory...

This fall I am starting a new chapter in my book called life. I am going to college for the first time ever, as a woman in my late 20's the thought is a bit frightening. It is funny how some things in life I say I will NEVER do, I end up doing. Fear is what has kept me from going. I had a billion and one excuses, "I am not wasting my money on school when I have no idea what I want to do." The problem with that excuse is that if I do not get out there I will never know what I want. I have blocked out so many opportunities simply because of FEAR. It seems silly but I know why I have been afraid. The few times I have actually tried to do something that really meant something to me I have failed miserably. I realize now that I have been looking at it all wrong. Instead of looking at my failures and realizing that it was not in fact a failure but just a door closing and a new path opening, I have limited myself and stopped growing and become stagnant and content to settle. The pilot light inside myself, I guess is how I would put it has not completely gone out. In fact a fire has rekindled inside myself to get up, get back on the road and start walking. I would have sat by waving and smiling at all the people walking by me, wondering how they found the strength and the brains to get out there and accomplish something. One day a person stopped, looked at me and encouraged me to get off my ass and believe that I could do something. That day which would have been like any other working at Miller's Variety a woman came in and told me her story and I resolved inside myself that it was time, time to do try making a difference and to stop complaining and to do something. I am hoping to get into a nursing program and who knows what might happen. I may find a totally different path or major once I get started but I am starting and it is a journey. I am not sure what is going to happen on this new path but that is okay.