Read something earlier that made my heart pound and my eyes water. It was odd. Little parts of me that I thought were dead and gone sometimes resurface in the most mysterious ways. Reading about somebody elses hope when life did not give them much to hope for made me realize that in my past I didnt used to be so skeptical about life.
I am so out of touch with my inner goodness. I know that sounds weird. I have grown to be so selfish the last few years. I almost hate myself for it. It is time to do something about it and try to not be so jaded about life when I have a whole big world outside my door that is full of hope and life and dreams.

On another note.. I bought a pizza oven yesterday. Its not a convienant store but its the start of my store.. even if I have to buy it one piece at a time.

Hope.... Dream.... Something..