So today was the begining of a new work week. The day was full of new things that I had to learn. Also got to brainstorm for some new things at work, which had to be my favorite part of the day.
Outside of that I just want to run away. I want to run away from the bullshit and I want run away from the responsiblity of life. I am so frusterated and I am in a negative mood and I need to get things off my chest. I just wish for once that something could be handed over to me. I am sick of working so hard and feeling like I get nowhere. I dont just mean in my current career I just mean life in general. I think I need a vacation not only from work but from life. Life as I know it anyways. I know that everyone has to work for what they have. I am no different then anybody else but it just sucks sometimes.
I wish that I was in a place that I hold so dear. A place that just doesnt exsist in the same way that it used to. I wish that I was there in that place. Sitting on a big granite slab and watching the sheep run across the meadow. I wish that I could sit there and cry with my arms up to the sky praying to the Lord, to come cleanse me and make me feel clean whole and at peace. Not only does that place not exsist anymore that girl no longer exsist either. You can only go so far and compromise so much before you don't even recognize who you once were.